Are you done with that coffee?

Woah, as in serious woah. I stepped on the scale today (after gorging myself with cheeze its for the last 48 hours, white cheddar so delicious) and I fell below 120. It scared me, I moved the scale around the room, checked it like three times. wow. Scary. 

In any case the unemployment is going well. I mean I guess technically not unemployed since I still do the work at home stuff, and I may have another work at home job which would cover my salary at PMUSA and mean I could stay in my pajamas all day and sit on the couch. Currently not sounding like a bad idea. I have a couple more interviews that I am waiting to hear from. I am just not looking back to going into an office setting. I hated it so much. I am not cut out to be in that kind of work environment. 

When i left one of the guys at work gave me  stack of books, and my parents just sent me a bunch of books off of amazon to cheer me up. I love the amazon wish list and that they use it! Makes me happy. So now I am surrounded by books, I have piles everywhere. Some of them I am really excited about reading.  

Mmmm... returned from wonderful shower. It feels so good after an hour on that evil machine. I need to go and get beer or some form of mixing time drink for the rest of my alcohol. Though beer sounds so much better. 

I know there was more I wanted to say when I started this stupid thing. I can't remember now. The endorphins are wearing off and my head is becoming fuzzy. Time to relax. 

Its sunday.

It is 10 a.m. I woke up two hours ago after sleeping for an hour when I initially tried to go to bed at midnight. The night before that I also managed limited sleep for reasons beyond my control. I think it has been at least 3-4 days since I have laid down and actually slept, I miss you sleep. It makes the day time long and painful. Frustrating.

The weekend was enjoyable beyond the lack of sleep. Friday ventured to Colonial Williamsburg with a friend. Wonderful food, wonderful shops, so much to see and do. i found this raspberry chipotle marinade at one of the shops that was actually really delicious. They recommend blending it with cream cheese for a dip as well... maybe I will have to experiment with it. We went to an art theater and saw The Orphanage, it was pretty good. It was an interesting experience simply because the room only held about 35 people and only 20 attended. Watching a horror movie in that close of a proximity to so many strangers is very different than the large theaters. Plans to go back for a full day have been made, so many restaurants to try and galleries to see that a day trip will be fun. 

Saturday I wandered around Richmond some more with one of my friends. I finally made it to Hollywood Cemetery where I did see Jefferson Davis's grave. Not that I was actually looking for it, it is just hard to miss with all of the confederate flags surrounding it. 

The cemetery itself is just beautiful, it is right along the river. There are so many hills and paths to wander through. I think we spent a couple of hours just walking. I discovered its one of three cemeteries in the same span of land, though we only visited the one, perhaps the others next weekend or something. Spent the rest of the day wandering around Carytown, lots of interesting shops. Found a music store that sells vinyl... I am already in trouble. Bought one new album, saw at least two others I had to resist. Finally ate good sushi! and discovered I like saki, although I am pretty sure I wouldn't be able to drink vast amounts of it in one sitting. 

Sigh tomorrow... interview, dentist appointment, hopefully hear from first job. Hopefully. I need to go and work out today, depending on the amount of energy I have to do anything. A nap would nice but highly unlikely. 

Maybe after morning activities I will consume the purchased alcohol I neglected last night. It was fairly pathetic, I was so exhausted and frustrated by sleep and that damn email- my head was killing me and I was nauseous to a point that drinking was unappealing. Ruined a perfectly good Saturday night. 

I really want pizza. Perhaps it was because of the 3 a.m. pizza show I watched. Looked delicious 

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Haha, I just read what I posted.. my train of thought has no rhyme or reason. Its very random.

"designer enzymes" they're all the rage!

I think I gained 5 pounds in alcohol last night.... and another 3 in water this morning trying to recover. Last day at work, I suppose this means G-town achieved his goal. Dammit. Not pleasant. At all. Woke up late, arrived late, didn't have time to shower. Feel gross and sleepy. And I want to go home. The last 3 minutes seem like forever. Not even kidding. There went another one.

Why on earth would you put Kahlua in Orange juice? I have no clue.

I watched I am Legend last night. It was a good movie, nothing like the book, but a good movie I suppose. Atonement amazing and followed the book really well. I was very angered with Mr. Harry Dean Stanton last night, he screwed up my movies, and now I have to do it all over again.

I have started reading No Country for Old Men, its good, interesting. The lack of punctuation or sentence structure is irritating, one of the reasons I abandoned Faulkner so many years ago. Maybe I should give him another try. We'll see.

The water cooler is so far away and this cup is so small. I hope I have enough time to work out before the weekend adventures begin. People at work are taking me out to lunch today, small hole in the wall mexican place... please let it be good! I miss mexican food and I it will be another ... 8 months before I go home again... well maybe. You never can tell with my parents.

Which reminds me, good news, its very likely my father didn't get the El Paso job! El Paso is scary and horrible, nobody wants to live there, least of all my parents. Stupid office politics. The next city to open for bidding is Nashville, not ideal but closer to Virginia and there are lots of whiskey distilleries there. I think it might be heaven. It wasn't so bad when I drove through last time, only a 9 hour drive from here. Thats not far when you have lived in Texas most of your life. Nashville I could handle. El Paso is gross.

April wake up and entertain me! aren't you proud, twice in one week! Still not the soul baringness of your blog... maybe thats why I don't manage to stay interested in blogging, I don't write about anything of importance.

I need my back popped... its been so long.

Nobody's Invincible

As predicted, I forgot about this thing. I knew it would happen. However, April's ever so stimulating documentary (in pictures and words) has inspired me to make yet another effort. It might be easier if I hadn't started so many of these wretched things... It took me a while to even remember what name I had used. Pathetic. I know. April also reminded me that I need to get a new camera... or find a new memory card to fix the old one. But a new one sounds like so much more fun.

In the past couple of weeks things have changed. Change is inevitable I suppose. I lost my job, which I am not terribly sad about. My boobs shrank, again not terribly sad about.

I just returned from another trip to Texas for Easter, which was nice, mostly the same. We grilled shark steaks, which are delicious and now I need to locate some here at some point... possibly. I had to go on the shopping trip from hell to find something "appropriate" to wear on Easter. My mother was not fond of my jeans and a t-shirt suggestion. Three hours later a dress was purchased, I think I actually like it... and possibly might wear it again, who knows.

Train of thought. Lost.

Two more days at this wretched job. The urge to just blow them off is incredibly appealing, but I shall resist. Three more months and April and I shall be united once again, and hopefully... HOPEFULLY be able to take decent pictures this time so we have a memory to cling to beyond the horrible July '07 pictures from Champagne..... whatever day it was. I can't remember. Haha, that night was so random, and you couldn't drive, and we got wasted on the trampoline. Haha, and did things that shall never be spoken of.

My insomnia has gotten out of hand again. While in Texas I think I slept a total of 10 hours, if that. The last couple of nights I have been able to fall asleep after two hours only to wake up every hour with that falling, just hit the pavement jolt. Over and over again. By the time I finally wake up in the morning I am in a cold sweat with my heart racing. It makes the days difficult. Last night I actually had an incredibly painful headache... the kind that almost makes you nauseous. Its very strange.

There April. Update complete.

The Croquet Player

Huzzah! All that effort paid off when today i stepped on the scale and have jumped off my plateau! I might actually reach my goal weight by Easter. Only 5 more pounds to go!! Wahoo!

Ok- celebrating aside, let us attend to the first matter at hand. I would like to say goodbye to the most wonderfully stupid and irritating show, it only lasted a season but I will remember it for at least another week. That is how dedicated I am. Journey Man you filled our Monday evenings with mild entertainment. I will never forget the completely predictable plot twists that we delighted in mocking. We thought that it was just a simple hiatus during the writers strike, a well need break to give each other some time. Alas, it was more than that. Your season was cancelled prematurely. There was so much more you had to give... we will greatly miss you.

Luckily Top Chef starts in March and with the end of the writers strike 24 will be back in action to fill the Monday night void.

I was going to put into words my annual Lenten/Ash Wednesday rant, but I think it can wait. A bath sounds nice right now....

Point Shirley

Motivation... ran 5 miles today and somehow manage to feel like crap.... but I did it, and as a result (in addition to my cheeze it and mango sorbet diet that was the weekend) I have lost another 2 pounds. Wahoo. With any luck I will be able to wear a two piece for the first time since I was 12.

I discovered a new genre of books that I have been overlooking for quite some time... short stories. I know it sounds so simple. However, I never really considered myself a fan, I had started to open up to it after I read the genius of Augusten Burroughs (if you haven't read him, do it!) but then I was still on the fence. I figured it was just the one author. On the reccomendation of one of my sons I read "I am Legend".... AMAZING! Seriously. It really surprised me, especially considering the fact that I had no intention of even seeing the movie, nor any compulsion to read the book. But I read it, its a long short story in a book of short stories. I then realized that short stories have their own wonderfulness in them, its like a book of christmas presents. You read one story and it gets you in one mood, and then BAM, otu of nowhere comes another story thats completely different but completely amazing in its own right. And some of them are the simplest two page tale of a man at a carnival or a bathtime experience.... and thus ends my applause of the genre that is the short story.

In other news, I am not sure I have any other news. Though I am excited for the release of Across the Universe, which I have not seen as of yet but know it will be amazing. In short I am excited. Other than work, running and the books there is absolutely nothing going on in Virginia. It has gotten surprisingly warm, so I will share that with you non existent readers.

I find that the more I read the more I think in a narrative. Its weird... especially when I am reading historical fictions, then the prose takes a turn for the old english or french.